What Is Lonnie's Room?

There is a room in our home to which I navigate more frequently than the others. It makes me feel secure, it is cozy, and it is quiet. From the peak of the room, there is a large rusty metal angel suspended by a very thin wire. It would apear as if the angel is hovering over me, protecting, and always present. The lighting in the room creates a virtual display of dancing shadows around the angel.

Every evening when I am in "MY ROOM", I think of what Luciano de Crescenzo once said, "We are all like one-winged angels. it is only when we help each other that we can fly."

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Star's End

Prior to this week, I had been questioning where my star was leading me and if I should follow a star that led me into uncertain territory.  I turned to my Greater Being for guidance, asking for a directional sign, one of purpose,  one that I cannot misinterpret.  Several days this week I was placed in the path of misfortune and tragedy of others who so desperately needed support, understanding and love. Although it has been an extremely emotional and draining week, I undoubtedly know that God has shown me my star's trail.  I am meant to use whatever talents I have been blessed with to be present for those who are experiencing life's difficult trials.    In this search of life and self, I am reminded of something Friedrick Nietzsche wrote: "On the mountains of truth you can never climb in vain; either you will reach a point higher up today, or you will be training your powers so that you will be able to climb higher tomorrow."  Where are you in your search for your star of life and self?

Monday, January 17, 2011

Our Role

Have you raised your face to the stars and looked for your guidance?  It leads me to wonder what my role will be once I find that star and follow it.    Does this inner feeling that I am to “move on” have anything to do with the star I am looking for?  More importantly, am I capable of changing roles from something familiar, to something unknown?   As I sit in “My Room” and ponder these questions, I reflect on our grieving families.   Their family structure and roles change as a disease progresses and death becomes reality within the family unit.  As a rule, there is always a “pivot” person…. the go to person….. the in-charge person…. the organizer…. the consoler.  My role now is to console the consoler and support that pivot person throughout the process.  It feels natural for me to be in this role.  Could I change to another role?  All good questions for which I have no answers.  Where are you in your star search?  Share your thoughts.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Your Star

This blog stems from a thought which appeared in our Missalette this morning and I felt it was worth sharing.  It was about the Christmas Star and how men traveled a long journey to find unknown joy where the star led them which changed lives forever.  What if you have a star that is prompting you to take an unexpected journey to an unknown destination.  Would you seek out that destination?  Your destination could be something wonderful such as a new job, new member of the family, new friends.....; or it could be a hurtful destination such as illness, lost relationships,  etc.  Perhaps your journey is an internal one.  As we begin 2011, accept your journey with enthusiasm and see where the star leads you.  We always have high hopes for any new year, so I encourage you to look to the sky for your star....embrace it and have faith that the end of the journey will be worth the obstacles you encountered in getting there, and your gifts are the lessons you learned along the way.  Look for your star!  God bless!